Because it’s easy, or not!

It’s easier to push active and restless  people  than it s to push the laid back ones…

It’s easier to rely on independent ones than it is to rely on the dependent ones…

It’s easier to criticize and mock the sarcastic ones than it is to criticize and mock the vulnerable ones…

It’s easier to leave all your shit for the strong ones to handle than it is to let the weak ones handle a fraction of it…

But in all that, you fail to see a few things…

The restless people are in dire need to just pause and lay back for a while to “recharge”, but they worry that if they do, they might realize how painful life is!

The independent ones are independent because they found no one to depend on without letting them down, some of them yearn to “depend”!

The sarcastic ones hide their sensitiveness and vulnerability underneath, and everything you carelessly say hits a sore nerve!

And some shit just weakens the strong ones and they only handle it because they don’t have any other choices!

It’s easy for you to do all that, but it’s not easy for them to be on the receiving end… and when they’re alone with their thoughts, they don’t feel that privileged to be dynamic, independent, sarcastic, and strong… they feel rather cursed because those things make people take them for granted and leave them feeling completely unappreciated!

Thank you very much for always pushing, always relying, always criticizing and mocking, and always leaving me your shit to handle… it did make me more “durable”, but day in and day out, I come to believe that I only get stronger on the outside and weaker on the inside.

The sad thing is, you will never really know, because I complain and whine my heart out here, but the most you see of me is “unjustified” anger and resentment… while I just… ache!

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~ by insomniac on March 26, 2010.

2 Responses to “Because it’s easy, or not!”

  1. “The independent ones are independent because they found no one to depend on without letting them down, some of them yearn to “depend”!”

    I do relate soooo much. you keep taking care of yourself and others. Telling yourself, you are strong and you can do it all by urself and you need no one at all. Yet there is a moment when you desperately need to put your feet up and depend on someone, and by the last second you have a change of heart. A voice inside keeps telling you someone will fail you. Get on your feet and depend on no one but YOU!

    • sorry ya ze2red, after writing such posts, i sort of get a time-lapse for a while….

      but yeah, don’t you just wish you could depend instead of being depended on all the time!

      donya!

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